Job Hunting

Well Well Well, here we are, Adulting. So how are y'all? Shocked to see me this soon? Haha what can I say, being consistent is the key (look who's saying). So before getting to the linkdIn trauma, let's give y'all a back story. Me, Laksh a 17 year old created a video more of a poetic storytelling with few of my friends. Got the adrenaline of storytelling through visual medium. This speech will be continued someday but just get the gist of it. Got into film making course, landed various projects with my seniors, got the chance to direct and write documentaries, music videos and short film. Well in my first year, I did pretty well, trust me. Paid freelance work, did what I loved and all things. But as we went down the line, the procrastination, the ego and the want of perfection ruined it all. Ego in an 18-year-old? Well it was not ego but when people around you do shitty work, when they start assuming you won’t do anything other than being the director or writer because that’s the image you’ve unknowingly crafted, even though you were open to other roles. But let’s be honest, who wouldn’t prefer doing what they love and ignoring the rest? And yet, despite that, the opportunities kept coming. People still saw something in me. And that’s when the sense of entitlement crept in... And that would have been manageable if I didn't had this nick to do everything perfect.  But while trying to reach perfection, I didn't even create mediocrity. I gave people hope I couldn't keep, left my own projects halfway, wrote great things but never created them cause huh Laksh doesn't do mediocre work. He needs best gears, perfect team and ideal funds. So he just doesn't create. Left many good opportunities, left many great people cause of all this. 

So why am I telling y'all this?

Ahankari the mann liya toh ahankar ko tumne piche chod diya 

I made many mistakes, professionally, personally and will continue to do so but hopefully this time not the same ones. If you ever find yourself going through something similar, make sure it remains just a phase before it starts deciding your fate.

And the people who did shitty work, many of them still do but atleast they are doing. 

Soon gonna start  a new chapter in my life leaving all of this behind, Starting from the start. A new role, a new phase.  More on that soon.

But Laksh, weren't we gonna talk about the linkdIn trauma? Ahhh haha for sure in the next blog. 

'Adulting is about learning from your mistakes, not stop making them'

(I still have faith in my stories, but now I have to be capable enough  to have theirs in me )