Bold or Stupid!?

Bold decisions lead to great stories, they say 

But only the story decides if the decision was bold or stupid. So today, I entered the CEO and CFO of my company’s cabin and said, 'I don't belong here'. Damm isn't that the boldest decision? Well if you ask the people around, it was the stupidest. You all have seen my linkedin post and know how difficult it was to land an internship so how could I just Quit? Well plot matters. I did that internship for around 2 months and genuinely learnt a lot, I realised it later but I really did. Why did I quit? the role drained me. It didn’t align with who I am or what I want to do. I want to be a filmmaker. And that place just wasn’t it for me.. And no matter how much credit I want to take for this decision, I can't. Cause I was still scared to go back to the linkedin life and start it all over but someone special had faith in me even when I didn't. Remeber when I said job hunting made me question that I lost it all cause of my ego that I am the best? Well she replied, 

'Who's Laksh without his ego'

Fuck something struck in me. I gathered all the courage I had and quit. No backup plan, no idea what I will do, no road map, just a belief that to borrowed for that time. The next few days? Horrible. No will, nothing and also something else happened during that time, so the lost man returns. When I think about it, I did feel that my decision to quit was wrong. Am I just meant to be mediocre? and many things but the sun rises again. I took another opportunity and not because I wanted it but maybe I needed it for my mental sanity. It still doesn't give me a clear path of where I want to go but I know I am leading somewhere! I could have written this blog when I was questioning and regretting my decision but maybe the faith, in the end every thing works out, refrained me from posting that. And what I have learnt is, I don't regret anything cause I make sure I don't regret any decision before making it, and when weak moments happen like this one but you see the things, dynamics changing around you after a decision, you stop regretting it. Like this job where I am now is bigger, better and maybe a little closer to my dream. Adulting is just about making sure you crawl, walk, and run. Just act! And believe me when I say this, 

'Everything gets better'